Diamondustification
What does it mean?
Reflect Upon The Word4 hours ago
Diamondustification
Diamondustification
1 day ago
Hey family. How many of you feel this way? A lot of people have been asking me how I feel lately, which is a question I don't typically answer, both because it's not the purpose of this channel and because I don't think there's anything anyone can do about it. However, if we are all of the same body, then we share the same wounds.
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A Subscribers Question
Oh dear Brother^ ..
Do you think that you could use a faith healing ..and/or deliverance ??
IM PRAYING FOR YOU RIGHT NOW THOUGH OK?
And wilk get a good' Brother to pray tOo concerning you and the tiredness
Please excuse me if i may come off as over zealous about this ..but i want to see you healed.. ok?
If and when it is no trouble ...could you share more about the tiredness youve been feeling?
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My Response
There's nothing to be done. I have seen all the world has to offer, the prettiest sights, the ugliest atrocities and as the writer of Ecclesiastes puts it, all is vanity. There's no momentary event that is going to put the life back into my step, no reminder of truths that I am well aware of and preach on a daily basis, no specific prayer that will give me the deliverance I crave because what I want is far more then reprieve. I want to be free from this flesh and the putrid estate of this world.
I tire of contention and having to explain the obvious about as much as I tire having to fight against myself to avoid being on the wrong side of the fence of that by becoming arrogant and prideful. I tire of wrestling with responsibilities that seem to be thankless in reward, as well as the cold shoulder fellowship of my fellow Christians here on internet, even when they try so hard, these words on a screen rarely ever match that of in person. Then again, no one in person could do anything for me either.
I tire of the weight of my past which while I may be forgiven for, follows me around like its own entity (and sometimes is), attacking my senses and ever trying to draw me back toward the anger and evil I once had, and it always swells up the most when I am assailed by people who claim to be for Christ while they mock and deride everything he stands for.
And I am sick to death of turning off my computer hoping that I can perhaps find shelter here in my own home, only to have our lawless younger generation or their parents who are even worse trespass all over my property and give me added headache. I tire of evil men getting away with it while I seem to suffer.
I tire of restraining myself from acting out in the flesh against them when my prayers for their departure in a truly long term fashion seem to go unanswered. I tire of well doing being expected of me, when I seem to get absolutely NOTHING for doing it. I tire of being convicted for my failures (which I know is God trying to heal me) when some of those failures come from physiological needs that I will never utilize nor do I want to and could just as well be removed from me permanently. Why fight a fight when the source could be cut off.
God is not forgetful, God shall deliver from all things, we suffer as Christ suffered, the flesh wars against the Spirit, God can give me life, God can give me peace. I know the answers, but nothing will satisfy.
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How many of you feel this way? Well, try not to be discouraged. The Lord is not far from us in any capacity, and our sufferings were bore both by the apostles and every old testament saint before them. We'll be going home soon. Please don't hide your injury. Now more then ever we need to support each other.
Come Lord Jesus. There is no doubt in my mind that we don't have much time left on this earth. Plenty of my fellow grace channels have shown off the immense amount of prophetic fulfillment going on right before our very eyes, and one of them, our sister watchwoman 65, was even censored for doing so. Pray for each other, but know that these pressures only further confirm that we are not apart of the world.
Rejoice at your position in heaven.
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